11.06.09
Posted in LifE at 10:07 pm by abefazz
ummmmmmmmmmm… buntu…blank….berserabut!!!!…total wreck..crazy mess…
that how i can describe me now…. y i never can be like other ppl?
y should i worry so much just to please other ppl?
y can i be bless with happiness and be with the people that meant so much to me….
God..is this a way for u to test me? to see how long and how far can i dealt with all this??
redha….tapi sampai bila???
why life is so hard on me?
maybe i’m just not meant to be like other ppl..for now…i guess…=I
whatever it is, i still have my faith…have my believe…that day will come 
i can just pray… =)
take care…..
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10.12.09
Posted in LifE at 10:24 pm by abefazz
thought everything gonna be smooth all the way =) unfortunately there this humongous rock come stumbling down… slowly we move it to the side to give way so that we can continue our journey..
the journey still have a long way to go…will there be an end? will we reach our destination? will we reach that it safely? will we encounter more obstacle along the way? will the vehicle withstand the bumpy rough road?
what ever it is the journey have to continue..no matter what =) every obstacle..every challenges is just part of the journey… maybe the suffering of waiting to reach the destination is a way to judge or to weight up if you’re really fit for the journey…will you really be that someone who will eventually reach the destination that you always wanted to go?? we can just pray… HE is the one who decides….by all means have faith mb one day..someday we will reach that special place..insaallah =)
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07.07.09
Posted in LifE at 10:06 pm by abefazz
Its nice to have memories aint it?
When I was small the time I love the most is when its banjir cause I can play with water…with my pvc boat =D
I miss our old house! Typical tall malay wooden house =)
Really have fonds memories back then….life was great, no need to worries bout anything….
Miss my childhood…where everything seems easy going and time always seems not enough…..for play time that is =D
Angpau during raya…goin to cousins house ..not because want 2 just visit but because can play their toys =P
Play football at the field eventhough not good at it,
Play kite that my dad made,big kite up to 10 feets that can really flies steadily…. he’s reallyt good at it! =)
Play in parit catching fish although I don’t really go into the parit bcause I always ask my friend to do that heheh bad of me huh =P
Then again its not really a parit its more to streams … since both end of the road infront of my house is river =D
When it’s the fruit season I will sell rambutan that my dad pick from the trees round the house…the money I’ll use to buy wt I want later…hehe
We have 1 ciku tree, the ciku really nice sweet..we will like put it in the rice pot to let it ripe…
We also have this wild tree we call it cherry tree…the fruit small but really sweet when ripe….
We also have banana and coconut trees…
You can have free flow of coconut drink anytime
But now if u want to have coconut or air neo as we call it, have to go 2 pasar to buy 1!!
And many many more…..
Oh my…really miss all that…..
Miss my fam miss my datuk, even now after 16 years he passed away…
Llife back then seems perfect. .nothing to worry..eat, slee, play , cartoon and cry when my parents don’t give wat I want =D
What im afraid of now is what if later I have kids, will they also can go tru all the great things that I do & I go tru when I was small =)
The world really changing now aint it?
Kids nowadays only knows pc game, tamagochi, psp, nitendo, wii and all other gadget and pc related things..
They miss out lots of other great thngs that they cant really do when they grow older… =) wat a pity….
so enjoy whatever you do when ever you still can =)
happy days…
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06.27.09
Posted in LifE at 9:16 pm by abefazz
25th June 2009 a sad day in history..
the greatest performer ever, Michael Jackson past away at the age of 50.
what is so great about this guy that we called king of Pop?
born Michael Joseph Jackson on 29th Aug 1958, he started his career as a group member comprising his brothers,Sigmund “jacky”, Toriano “tito”, Jermaine and Marlon called The Jackson 5.
he was the lead singer in the group, rendering great song with his afro hair and dance move that capture the heart of fans all over the world!
His life was fill with up and downs, weirdness, scandals (child molestation claims), known for his fame, as a trend setter, an icon and a figure that we grew up with =)
I can’t go on….. what ever happened MJ will always be with us forever..
may u rest in peace,
thank you for all the great songs and thank you for the great memories you gave us….
-bye-
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06.09.09
Posted in LifE at 8:37 pm by abefazz
O mY GoD…..
seriously i tought hyppbloger was no longer in service!!!! luckly some1 ask me y i dont update my blog!! to my suprise….here i am posting something again =D what a relieve…miss my blog actually hehehe =P
so..whats new for me…. =) well i got a G.. no more pre G just G =) hope so =P life been good.. im up on my feet again…have something to look forward to…never been happier…. but dearly misses someone =(
work…work..work..really hectic, extremely busy!!! but loving it =) enough said, don’t want to think much bout work when at home =P
Kuching!! wow..miss my hometown..miss the food..miss the places…miss going fishing….mis my cousins, nephew and nieces and most of all miss my family =)
thats life =)…..
by the way end of the month, i’ll be going to KL to meet someone =) someone special… really can’t wait even it will be a 5 hours drive =P
really excited can blog again…but thats all for now…till later…
BYE..Take Care =)
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12.17.08
Posted in LifE at 8:24 am by abefazz
letting go is always diffficult….
accepting someone new is hard…..
how to measure one’s sincerity??
life is hard….
what can we do is just pray let time decide……
everything happend for a reason….
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11.10.08
Posted in LifE at 12:17 pm by abefazz
well well WELL…last nite i l learn smthg about “movie”…
this is not any “Movie” but a block buster,a smasher, a full house type of “movie” =)
even not yet plays in “cinema” or elsewhere in that matter, yet this movie already making a sceen!
as far as i know, “tcket” for this “movie” is somehow by “invitation” only!!
my my my,the ” movie” is too good that it is for certain special “audience” only?? =)
i’m just waiting my chance to go n see this “movie”…still hoping…
then again i don’t really know the synopsis of the movie?????emmm so far from wat i know the “movie” surely is great with cute,charming, sweet and interesting lead “actress” who know the movie will sure do very very well later on…
i guess it will just be a waiting game for now, mayb later can get that “ticket” to watch the movie….
who knows hehehe
again, is it worth every moment “watchin” it?? well i guess that can only be answer when i really do have the chance to watch the “movie” premiers =)
till then hapy wishing and hoping hahah =D
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10.31.08
Posted in LifE at 1:36 pm by abefazz
its long since i last post something here…..its like ages although it just been few weeks heheh…. past few weeks i was extremely busy with work and now a bit relax =) but just for a short while by next month it will be busy again and it will meant going back from work late again =(
what ever it is i just want to take this few days of “freedom” to refresh myself, enjoy and……. and dunno wat to do hahahah maybe just lazing around…. somemore weeked is just round the coner want to enjoy it to the fullest =P
for you guys out there….. work is work…take time for yourself enjoy ur weekend..i know i will heheh
OooWWwHHhh also im waiting for the ” maybe someday” thing to come true sooner heheh. =)
take care…
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10.10.08
Posted in LifE at 1:25 pm by abefazz
i just wish that we can turn time back…… do you ever have regrets?? do you ever wish that somehow if you can go back to that very time and change what have happened?
everyone have regrets, it just a matter of how much the regrets effect you life!! i also do have regrets… i just wish i could go back in time to make things right =( whatever it is, always live life to the fullest but at the same time never ever neglect your responsibilities towards family, you love ones, friends, god and to anyone who is dear to you…
cherish life as you live once, never ever regrets something later on in your life..do what you need to do, have what you got to have. You can have all the wealth in the world, but wealth can’t never ever buy time! always put your feet on the ground…..be humble, be happy and treasure every seconds of your life…..always…
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09.24.08
Posted in LifE at 12:23 pm by abefazz
have yo ever felt the devastating feeling of losing someone or rather 2 close person in just 1 month time… it really challenge you inner strength to face the reality! furthermore if they holds many great moments and memories that are priceless for you to cherish.. what ever it is…we know, every living things will one day be called upon his creator. it just a matter of how and when….untill the time comes please cherish what you have and never waste a moment if life doing something you will regret….
-sad sad feeling-
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08.25.08
Posted in LifE at 12:25 pm by abefazz
Losing someone is hard =( especially if that someone is really dear to you… nofthing in life is immortal.. what remains just fonds memories that you can cherish forever…
always appreciate the one you love and the one that loves you, never ever hurt their feeling cause you’ll never know if you could ever have the opportunity to say sorry if god willing something happens to that person…
Live life to the fullest, life is just to short to be thrown away for nofthing! Always put your feet o the ground and your head hail up high ….. bye
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07.22.08
Posted in LifE at 12:52 pm by abefazz
Yup as it says, tomorrow’s the big day. finally i will hand in my resignation letter. Of course it’s sad but i have to find the courage to hand in the letter to my boss who in the matter of fact will be surely shock!!!
I don’t meant to hurt anyone or to burden anyone with my loads of work (which i will make sure to be done before i’m gone) but i have postponed my resignation for almost 2 months already. maybe this is not the right or the best time to resign but i hope my colleagues will understand. I have many problems lingering in my mind right now. maybe outside or physically i look happy and cheerful but inside i’m full of problems. only god know what i’m going through right now. Maybe all this is just some challenges or test for me, maybe who knows after this there’s a better future that lies ahead.
I can only pray =) ……..
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07.02.08
Posted in LifE at 12:37 pm by abefazz
Waiting for something or someone is excruciating especially you are expecting something big out of it. day seems to be longer than usual, time goes by seconds!!! you could even see the clock as if it is ticking too slow than usual.
The waiting game definitely takes a toll on you. when we just too eager or too excited the time also seems very very slow.. but then when we achieve or get the thing we wait for it would be really sweet and worth every single secon of it =)
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06.11.08
Posted in LifE at 1:02 pm by abefazz
To be or not to be, a quote from Shakespeare.What do we want to be?? could we be something or someone that we desired? to be or to choose between two contradicting matter, things or person is no small matter.
when you are in a middle of a dilemma to choose between two choices, what should you do?? flip a coin and let it decide? for small small matter maybe can but what if it involves your life? in life we face many difficulties, we faced hard to make decision situations, be in a position that requires us to do something that we don’t like, face people that we hate!! and many other burdening expect of life that we must face on..
To make choices for your future is something that requires lots and lots of thinking. You can’t only think bout yourself but also bout others especially your family and your love one…
To make a choice or decision that could make you loose what ever you have now is just ridiculous and definitely would be your greatest regret!! To make choices from good to bad or bad to worst is something no one in their rational state of mind would do!!!
NEVER EVER MAKE THIS MISTAKE, just hold on to what you have especially if it is something you have cherish for a long time.
LIFE is so funny, sometimes just like it is playing trick on you. It just a matter of how yo deal with it.
TO BE OR NOT TO BE is definitely a choice or decision in your own hand but remember the choices you made is wrong, it will always hunt your life forever.
Enjoy life and make decisions wisely….
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06.09.08
Posted in LifE at 1:40 pm by abefazz
DREAMS..all of us have dreams, no harm in having dreams. No matter how small or how big it is, dreams is something that keep we going. To dream something is just like to set a goal for yourself and try all your best to achieve it.. To dream also meant to give yourself a hope and something to keep you going.
What is your dream? for me, my dream is to settle down with my beloved HONEY =p, raise a family, enjoy life as it goes , grows old together, do things together, go places, holiday and most of all is to have and to know that she will always be there by my side when ever i need her. I do love her so much, i can’t even imagine of not having her by my side. If that do happens i just don’t know how to go on with this life. Loving someone is easy, everyone can say “I LOVE U” but to really know the person well, to know what he or she likes and dislike, to know what makes her happy or sad or to have the ability to sense or have the intuition is what loving someone is really about.
Loving someone takes lots and lots of sacrifices, it is a road full of thorns, it is full of hurdles, never ever give up!! To love or to be love and to be cherish by someone is truly a bless. Never ever let this slips from you, to have someone be there for you even when you throw tantrum, you curse, you give bad face, you have no disrespect for him or her, never felt sorry, never ever try to understand his or her feeling anymore, not even smile, not even wanted to see his or her face again, feel disgusted of him or her, feel that he or she is just a burden, always be mad and scold and always try to break his or her heart and worst of all is to say that you have no feeling of love for him or her anymore is just devastating. It would crush and cut his or her heart with a wound that will never heal =(
For someone that can bear all this, is truly someone that has the purest love. Not everyone can withstand all this because love is so subjective, how great you love someone can only be measure by the beholder.
For you who let go the person who loves you like that is truly a lost, if you have misunderstandings, problems and disagreement why don’t take the right channel to express you feelings, breaking up is never the solution especially you have known that person inside out and known him or her for years. Never let a third person take advantages and be the reason for your break up!! The third person will definitely never be the same and will surely never treats you the way the person that cherish you with all his or her heart does. Especially if it’s you first Love. First is the deepest and first also the hardest..
Better still if you can go through all this, first love will always be the deepest even it is the hardest but it will definitely be the SWEETEST.
If your in a relationship that just like a bot that just a about to sink, that doest meant that it would sink, at least do all your best to get all the water out of the boat. Slowly and eventually you can avoid the sinking..
Just bear a bit and never rush into things. You never know what will happen. Is it the right choice? Is it want you want? Remember all the promises that you had made? Remember all the writing you have wrote? Remember all the plans you want to do? Remember the sweet moments you go through? Remember the ups and down? Remember when you sad who cheers you up? Remember who always be by your side when you in need? Remember him?? What he wants is just to have his broken heart be mend. To be love and to be happy again. He would do anything in the world for you, never ever make this mistake and end a great relationship that we built all this years.
Either u can achieve your dream or not that is another thing but never give up hope and never ever give up to dream, who knows maybe one day it will come true =)
-God Bless-
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06.05.08
Posted in LifE at 12:40 pm by abefazz
RED Alet RED Alert!!!!! OIL PRICE is UP.. i dont meant the world crude oil price but the one that caused all the frenzy last night, the one that caused massive jams around the country!!! the one that will make big hole in our pockets!!!! ARrGGhhhhhh….
RM2.50 a litre.. from RM1.92 previously!!!!!! what to do, so from now on i think we just have to cut all those time driving around just for fun. We will never hear again the phrase ” my hobby is driving (really?? ppl do drive as hobby??) , i love to drive to the beach to relax myself” the only thing we would hear would be ” what?? want to go to beach?? no need! better just sleep at home!!”
Just like always, if the price of fuel goes up then prices of things, either goods, services etc.. will definitely goes up! not only we were burden with the current cost of living that always shoots up now come this.
i actually dont know what to post, i cant think!!!! if my words all jumble up then so sorry heheh.
Price of fuel goes up, my blood also goes up!!! heheheeh
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05.30.08
Posted in LifE at 2:16 pm by abefazz
i really missed to post something on my blog…work just so hectic…loads and loads of work to do!!! not to mention other problems i have to deal with =( why can’t there just be a day that we don’t have to worry bout problems!!just a day is enough!! but thats life hehehe
no problem = no fun
many problems = surely die one heheh
well, there just so many things that i really like to express out, it just i really dont know how or rather i dont really want to express out my feelings…. i’m the type that have problem in relating my feelings or expressing my problems to someone else… i think i’m a good listener cause most of my really close friends come to me with their problems and seek advise from me. But then again how is it i have this issue of not trusting others???
=] In my school days, back then in kuching swk, i always envy my friends that have everything ….
either its the best looking school beg or the way they can afford to buy at SUGARBUN (a fast food chain like KFC, situated just infront of my school) after school or they have the best football shoes to play football with or some other small small matter that when i think back it just not worth to have!! my family was not rich butwe were bless with TLC–> tender loving care =)
my parents would always try to provide us with the best they can afford, they always emphasis on the important of education.that has always been their main priority for me and my siblings.. and what do you know,me and my siblings do turn out good. I works as R&D engineer for an international JAPAN company, 2 of my younger sis currently pursuing their dgree at local uni and my youngest brother is in form 2 and one of the top form 2 student at his school. I’m proud of them but i never really say it out loud cause it just that i cant express it to them… my pray is always with them. It’s hard being the eldest when all of your siblings look up to you as a role model and i think i some how manage to give them a good example =)
But of course all this will not become what it is today if not for my parents!! Mom, Dad I love you so much.
My advise to all of you out there, if you still have your parents, do all your best to pleased them and never ever make them sad…..
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05.21.08
Posted in LifE at 7:40 am by abefazz
Its been like ages since i last post something here, i was very busy with work and pre occupied with problems.
Well, what have happened for the past week or so??? Thomas cup—Malaysia didn’t get into the final when they were galantly beaten by the mighty China at Semi, still a good show though and damn proud of the team except for few players that to me have really let down the country .
Champions League, as i said before MU for sure will be in the Finals =) and once again I’m predicting that they will win a double this season. One in the bag another one to go =)
Work, can we just be rich without having to go through the hardship of working?? you can just wish!!!! for me i think its the time to say sayonara to the place where i work now. It’s not that i don’t like it there, it just that i have to many problems, family matters. Maybe in one or two months time it will surely be a sayonara.I can’t just resign yet bcause there’s to many burden i have to shoulder now. My colleagues are just the best you could wish in any work place!!! they just so friendly, co-operative,helpfull, caring, very resourcefull and the list goes on and on. They haven’t know my plan to resign yet unless they read this blog =).
If you guys really do read this blog then don’t be too surprise k =) . Life is just like a spinning wheel, sometimes you’re on the highest point and other time you will be at the lowest point. No matter where you are or who you are, the best thing to do is just to be you’re self and never give up easily.
What ever happens in Life we need to take it as it is, face the reality, if you have faith in the Almighty, go to HIM ask for the strenght to go through all the difficulties. Without it you will be lost. Nevertheless, saying is far easier than actually facing or going through it. So friends have some faith and be strong =)
-All the best- Gambate-
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05.12.08
Posted in LifE at 12:51 pm by abefazz
no one or rather no relationship between two person is always perfect, there always ups and downs!! it just a matter of how we deal with the problems that matters. For having someone to love you, to pamper you and to be with you either its happier or sad time is just hard to come by. Do cherish the person ho cares and love you.
every decision we make in life do effect the person who makes it greatly but ever think bout how would it effect other people around you? When some one try to give advice we must try to listen and give some thought as sometimes we human are blinded by our feelings. Always think bout the future, the past……well wat happened in the past will never could be rewriten what we can do only to take it as a reminder and guidance for us to move ahead in our life!
To give your whole heart to someone is truely a blessing for whom it is intend to…..it is not easy to give nor to receive.
so friends do cherish what you have and always remember the person that loves you, appreciate them and never ever let them go….
=(
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